1. I bare the consequences for a disease that is out of my control. On a spiritual level, I feel that I am often punished for crimes I cannot identify, not even having the promise of being able to face the invisible accuser. The steps often seem to imply that I must dig deep to bring up charges against myself. Isn’t that an old Christian misconception that self-flagellation equates to spiritual development?
2. There is a disturbing parallel between the elements of behavior control found in centralized religion and some of the recovery rhetoric propagated in meetings. And it truly does feel like rhetoric when I know what the “right things” to say are, and feel accepted for saying them. But in the end, I am left with this gnawing feeling of not being true to myself.
3. Does my Higher Power run a good cop-bad cop scenario by allowing alcohol to bully me into a “state of reasonableness?” This is the Godfather perspective of Higher Power that has plagued me in the past. (God, grant me the serenity…Our Father, who art in heaven = Godfather)
Daily Reprieve 