“Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.” From page 417 of the Big Book. It was prescribed to me in my first time through treatment. I have acceptance issues. I found many situations unacceptable in my life. It was a declaration that I would not release the impossible to change category into that category. I might still be able to undo this and make it closer to the way it is supposed to be. The text goes on to say, “When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation – some FACT OF MY LIFE – unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.”
I am going to go to several military recruiters initually, following my intuitive understanding, and continue to knock on the door of opportunity. Will it be answered by civilian or military officials? I have impact, but I do not have control on how that impact will play out. Letting go is a difficult process for me. Going to bed and accepting that the day is OVER. I cannot do anything else. Slow down emotional responses if I cannot stop them altogether. Become alert to the flow of things, move with them, grasshopper. OK, goodnight.
Daily Reprieve 