Daily Reprieve

From the Daily Reflections of November 11;

We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, all will be well with us, here and hereafter.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 105)

I pray for the willingness to remember that I am a child of God, a divine soul in human form, and that my most basic and urgent life-task is to accept, know, love and nurture myself. As I accept myself, I am accepting God’s will. As I know and love myself, I am knowing and loving God. As I nurture myself I am acting on God’s guidance.

I pray for the willingness to let go of my arrogant self-criticism, and to praise God by humbly accepting and caring for myself.

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Cling to the Promise

Do not tell everyone your story.  You will only end up feeling more rejected.  People cannot give you what you long for in your heart.  The more you expect from people’s response to your experience of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule.

You have to close yourself to the outside world so you can enter your own heart and the heart of God through your pain.  God will send to you the people with whom you can share your anguish, who can lead you closer to the true source of love.

God is faithful to God’s promises.  Before you die, you will find the acceptance and the love you crave.  It will not come in the way you expect.  It will not follow your needs and wishes.  But it will fill your heart and satisfy your deepest desire.  There is nothing to hold on to but this promise.  Everything else has been taken away from you.  Cling to that naked promise of faith.  Your faith will heal you.

(The Inner Voice of Love, page 4)

From the Daily Reflections of November 10;

Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 105)

That’s what it is — belonging! After a session of meditation I knew that the feeling I was experiencing was a sense of belonging because I was so relaxed. I felt quieter inside, more willing to discard little irritations. I appreciated my sense of humor. What I also experience in my daily practice is the sheer pleasure of belonging to the creative flow of God’s world. How propitious for us that prayer and meditation are written right into our A.A. way of life.

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“If circumstances warrant, we ask our wives or friends to join us in morning meditation. If we belong to a religious denomination which requires a definite morning devotion, we attend to that also. If not members of religious bodies, we sometimes select and memorize a few set prayers which emphasize the principles we have been discussing. There are many helpful books also. Suggestions about these may be obtained from one’s priest, minister, or rabbi. Be quick to see where religious people are right. Make use of what they offer.”  (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 87).

I am reading a book by Henri J. M. Nouwen called the Inner Voice of Love.  It is a collection of spiritual imperatives he wrote during a particularly dark period of time in his life.  He sought seclusion, much the same as many of us have gone to treatment.  He had spiritual guides to help him work through his pain, much like many of us have had counselors and psychiatrists to aid in our recovery.  I find his words potent and they resonate powerfully.  He recommends that the reader use the book like a devotional.  In reading his words, I am a such a novice in comparison and what I provide would not be as helpful as his writings.  I will share some of these imperatives with you here while I am on the 11th step section of the Daily Reflections, and I highly recommend that you acquire a copy of the book.

Work around Your Abyss

There is a deep hole in your being, like an abyss.  You will never succeed in filling that hole, because your needs are inexhaustible.  You have to work around it so that gradually the abyss closes.

Since the hole is so enormous and your anguish so deep, you will always be tempted to flee from it.  There are two extremes to avoid:  being completely absorbed in your pain and being distracted by so many things that you stay far away from the wound you want to heal.

From the Daily Reflections of November 9;

But first of all we shall want sunlight; nothing much can grow in the dark. Meditation is our step out into the sun.   (As Bill Sees It, page 10)

Sometimes I think I don’t have time for prayer and meditation, forgetting that I always found the time to drink. It is possible to make time for anything I want to do if I want it badly enough. When I start the routine of prayer and meditation, it’s a good idea to plan to devote a small amount of time to it. I read a page from our Fellowship’s books in the morning, and say “Thank You, God,” when I go to bed at night. As prayer becomes a habit, I will increase the time spent on it, without even noticing the foray it makes into my busy day. If I have trouble praying, I just repeat the Lord’s Prayer because it really covers everything. Then I think of what I can be grateful for and say a word of thanks.

I don’t need to shut myself in a closet to pray. It can be done even in a room full of people. I just remove myself mentally for an instant. As the practice of prayer continues, I will find I don’t need words, for God can, and does, hear my thoughts through silence.

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I find the quote from “As Bill Sees It” amusing since I talked of finding comfort in the darkness for my meditation.  Now, I do seek casual communication throughout the day, with the practice of attending to that intuitive voice I credit to Gomu (God of my understanding).  After publishing Endigar 601, I came across a good article that I found synchronistic.  So I will publish it here to share with you;

Meditation is essential to my life. It wasn’t always that way.

I’ve flirted with meditation for years, starting at the age of 23. Living in San Francisco at the time, I was introduced to TM (otherwise know as Transcendental Meditation — yes, the one made famous by the Beatles). It scared me a little, because I didn’t understand how it worked. It seemed almost mystical. I’d read all the research and was impressed by the long list of incredible, positive things it was said to address, including anxiety and stress, while generally promoting tranquility in a hectic life.

The promise of all of that was intriguing, but it took me another three years before I went back and actually took a class. From that moment, I sensed something shifting, but my mind continued to resist. I was skeptical. How could meditation possibly do all of these things? Could it really be that easy?

Because I struggled with panic attacks and chronic anxiety, just picking up meditation here and there helped immensely, but only for short periods of time. Soon after feeling better, I would revert back to old behaviors. I found it difficult to sit still for 20 minutes consistently, twice a day. Sometimes the time flew by, and other times I couldn’t bear to sit in the silence, alone with my non-stop internal dialog. My thoughts lined up, one after the other, like planes on a runway at takeoff.

I lost patience in those moments, so meditation went back on the shelf, and I continued to flirt with it for the next 10 years. I brought it out only when I felt I needed it most. Each time I tried something new — a guided mediation, breathing meditation, TM or even walking meditation. They all made me feel grounded and calm, but I could never commit to a regular practice.

In the midst of creating my company and leaping into a new career, I finally got serious. I listened to my instinct and committed to my meditation practice. I have meditated almost everyday since. When I have missed a day here and there, I really notice the difference. I can feel something’s absent and I get right back to it the following day. Since I’m running a business, my schedule is so limited that if I have to choose between meditation or a workout, I choose meditation nine times out of 10.

I make this choice everyday because of the benefits I feel in my life through meditating. First and foremost, meditation calms me. It slows everything down. Whatever is going on in my life at that exact moment just stops. It allows me to breathe consciously and just Be. It doesn’t stop the thoughts, and it shouldn’t. They continue, but I witness them rather than react to them. I just allow them to float through my mind as I repeat my mantra. Sometimes the feeling I get can be deep, powerful, and spiritual, which offers great clarity. Other times, I feel refreshed, as if I took a quick power nap, but I always feel calm and grounded.

For me, becoming a meditator has been a deep learning process. It wasn’t something I picked up and loved immediately, even though I knew it was good for me. It took time and lots of patience with myself to get to this point. I have much more inner calm and an ability to trust myself. It’s helped me make choices to live my life in a way that’s right for me. Meditation is essential to my life.

I know that I will meditate for the rest of my life. In fact, I’ve decided to deepen my own practice by training to become a meditation teacher. I’m going in with no expectations, just an open mind to learn more about myself.

Meditation is a personal experience, and everyone’s path is different. I encourage you to stick with it, even if you want to give up. Remember it’s a practice. If you don’t get it on the first, second or even third try, it’s OK, don’t get too frustrated. It may mean you just haven’t found the type of meditation that works for you, and you need to experiment further. Like anything worthwhile in life, the benefits will develop over time.

Let go and trust yourself.

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From the Daily Reflections of November 8;

Meditation is something which can always be further developed. It has no boundaries, either of width or height. Aided by such instruction and example as we can find, it is essentially an individual adventure, something which each one of us works out in his own way.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 101)

My spiritual growth is with God as I understand Him. With Him I find my true inner self. Daily meditation and prayer strengthen and renew my source of well-being. I receive then the openness to accept all that He has to offer. With God I have the reassurance that my journey will be as He wants for me, and for that I am grateful to have God in my life.

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For me, meditation is a frustrating exercise unless I start with a measure of serenity.  If I attempt to enter a focused and listening state when my heart is aflutter with anxiety, I am overwhelmed by the active and loud voice of fear.  So there are things that I must do to attempt serenity.  I must be up early enough so that the day’s activities have not found me.  I prefer a very dark and secluded room.  When it is time to focus, I like candles and rituals.  Before that I am trying to regulate my breathing.  There are many disciplines I have pulled from to acquire a serene state of mind.  It takes me a while to enter into this state, and time constraints can be quite corrosive to the practice.  I will never experience the magic of it if I do not keep showing up to that dark place to meet with Gomu (God of my understanding), for I never know what day will be the most effective.  My part is to keep trying and I believe the progressive nature of spirituality will take hold.