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Endigar 202

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on May 5, 2009 by endigar

It is 10:45pm and I am at 30.6%.  Something is happening here, something magical.  I am understanding some things about me, sure…but.  I don’t know how to describe it.  I feel the reality of my Higher Power more.  I am drawn to this Being.  I will not kid you, every time I look at one of these resentments, feel it again, it makes me sick inside.  I fight giving into self-loathing.  Or anger and distrust.  Yet I can sense that I am not alone in this process.  I need that.  The meeting was good tonight.  And I am connecting again.  I have had a withdrawal reaction as the 4th step began.  Not so tonight.  Hope is growing in me.