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Endigar 435 ~ The Upward Path

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on June 2, 2014 by endigar

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

Here are the steps we took. . . .   (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 59)

These are the words that lead into the Twelve Steps. In their direct simplicity they sweep aside all psychological and philosophical considerations about the rightness of the Steps. They describe what I did: I took the Steps and sobriety was the result. These words do not imply that I should walk the well-trodden path of those who went before, but rather that there is a way for me to become sober and that it is a way I shall have to find. It is a new path, one that leads to infinite light at the top of the mountain. The Steps advise me about the footholds that are safe and about chasms to avoid. They provide me with the tools I need during the many parts of the solitary journey of my soul. When I speak of this journey, I share my experience, strength and hope with others.

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This resonates with me today.  The Steps are not a sterile system of tasks to be reproduced in lockstep with icons of recovery.  I must own and integrate them into the delights and anguish of my life.  Connected to my God and the Fellowship, I travel this “solitary journey of my soul.”

“When I speak of this journey, I share my experience, strength and hope with others.”  Yes.  So say we all.

Endigar 434 ~ A Changed Outlook

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on June 1, 2014 by endigar

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.   (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 84)

When I was drinking, my attitude was totally selfish, totally self-centered; my pleasure and my comfort came first. Now that I am sober, self-seeking has started to slip away. My whole attitude toward life and other people is changing. For me, the first “A” in our name stands for attitude. My attitude is changed by the second “A” in our name, which stands for action. By working the Steps, attending meetings, and carrying the message, I can be restored to sanity. Action is the magic word! With a positive, helpful attitude and regular A.A. action, I can stay sober and help others to achieve sobriety. My attitude now is that I am willing to go to any length to stay sober!

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My alcoholic attitude was one of isolation and distrust.  My outlook on life was depressive and fearful.  Alcohol gave me the stupid grin of oblivion.   That life is fading.

I am being introduced to the actual me. I am finding a life in which I am useful and rewarded for my courage, rather than punished for my bravado.  I desire action and the opportunity to serve.  The image of being trapped by unrealistic expectations is crumbling.

It is a work in progress, and it is one that I embrace.