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Endigar 399 ~ Healing Heart and Mind

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From Today’s Daily Reflections;

Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.  (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 55)

Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can experience Him by loving people and allowing people to love me. But I can neither love nor be loved if I allow my secrets to get in the way.

It’s the side of myself that I refuse to look at that rules me. I must be willing to look at the dark side in order to heal my mind and heart because that is the road to freedom. I must walk into darkness to find the light and walk into fear to find peace.

By revealing my secrets – and thereby ridding myself of guilt – I can actually change my thinking; by altering my thinking, I can change myself. My thoughts create my future. What I will be tomorrow is determined by what I think today.

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Deception reinforces insanity.  Sanity is strengthened and fed by truth.  Double lives lead to fractured personalities and internal civil wars.  My connections with others must be taken off the deceptive transmission frequencies established in active alcoholism and adjusted to the clearest and most accurate truth about myself that I can uncover.  Connections based on the purest form of reality push me toward healing of heart and mind.

Endigar 398 ~ A Great Paradox

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From Today’s Daily Reflections (for April 30th);

These legacies of suffering and of recovery are easily passed among alcoholics, one to the other. This is our gift from God, and its bestowal upon others like us is the one aim that today animates A.A.’s all around the globe.  (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 151)

The great paradox of A.A. is that I know I cannot keep the precious gift of sobriety unless I give it away.

My primary purpose is to stay sober. In A.A. I have no other goal, and the importance of this is a matter of life or death for me. If I veer from this purpose I lose. But A.A. is not only for me; it is for the alcoholic who still suffers. The legions of recovering alcoholics stay sober by sharing with fellow alcoholics. The way to my recovery is to show others in A.A. that when I share with them, we both grow in the grace of the Higher Power, and both of us are on the road to a happy destiny.

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I have grown to trust this kind of helping over all others.  I trust others to help me when their lives depend on it.  I am so glad to be free of the religious high horse that offers patronizing pity as its primary solace.  My help is not given to sell a religious icon.  It is motivated by unapologetic self-preservation.  That is real and honors the individual.