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From Courage to Change of February 27;

It is not necessary for me to map out a master plan for my recovery – my Higher Power has  already done that. It is only necessary to humbly ask for God’s guidance and for the willingness to follow that guidance today. I know that I am not alone: I will receive all the help I need along the way. After praying for recovery, I can let go, knowing I will walk serenely in the right direction.

But I can make some choices that will help to speed up my progress. I can take good care  of myself more consistently. I can attend Al-Anon meetings, call my Sponsor, try some new kind of service work. I can relax, meditate, exercise, read Al-Anon literature, play, eat a healthy meal. I find that when I put forth the effort to do what I can each day, I gradually get stronger.

Today’s Reminder

I cannot control my recovery. I can’t force myself to let go any faster, nor insist upon serenity. But I can take small actions to remind myself that I am a willing participant in this process. I have every reason to be hopeful, for each step I take is a step toward living life more fully. Today I will do something nice for myself  that  I haven’t made time for until now.

“If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with success unexpected in common hours.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

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“I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.” ~ John 15:5 (Words of the Christ)

I have struggled with the idea of letting go in many areas of my life. The only times I have successfully “let go” is when I realized it was so that I could grasp something more valuable and beneficial. I release to gain.

Recently I have returned to an old practice of my younger years with a new determination. I meditate on God with pen and paper before me and write the words that come to me that are different than my own thoughts. I have learned to sever the voice of fear from this time, since that has been the primary God-imposter in my head. My own thoughts are familiar to me, the paths they take, the caverns of my mind it has me wander. No, this is a practice I take with me throughout the day that helps me move forward.

It has improved as I have matured. I am not so much looking for detailed guidance as I am trying to understand and become friends with this entity that has loved me, has intervened in my behalf, and that encourages me with simple words that have impact because of this Source I believe to be outside of myself:

“There is no need to fear. I will show Myself strong in your life. I want you to lay your head down in peace. Trust me with this life, day by day.”

 

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