Endigar 784

From Courage to Change of February 22;

I had problems making  decisions because my standards were impossible to achieve. I wanted to make decisions that would get me exactly what I wanted, or I didn’t want to make them at all. I learned in Al-Anon that no one can know in advance all the consequences of any decision. We can only take the information at  hand and do our best in choosing thoughtfully.

I don’t have to make decisions alone. I can turn to God and ask for help. Over time I have come to realize that this help takes  many different forms — a meeting topic that offered perspective, a tug at my stomach, a “coincidence.” And sometimes God speaks through others. When members share their experience, strength, and hope, I listen carefully to how they handled similar situations.

In the grand  scheme of things, no single decision is ever really that important. I can  do my best to make decisions wisely, but the results are in the hands of a Higher Power.

Today’s Reminder

With the help of a Higher Power, decision-making can be one of life’s great adventures. Each crossroad brings a new challenge, and I am capable of dealing with whatever comes my way.

“When I used to make specific requests [of God], I was so busy waiting for them to be granted that I didn’t realize the answers were staring me in the face.” ~ As We Understood . . .

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“Nevertheless, we find that our thinking will, as time passes, be more and more on the plane of inspiration. We come to rely on it.” ~ Alcoholics Anonymous

Solsbury Hill

by Peter Gabriel

Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night

He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing stretching every nerve
I had to listen had no choice

I did not believe the information
Just had to trust imagination
My heart was going boom boom, boom
“Son,” he said, “Grab your things, I’ve come to take you home.”

To keeping silence I resigned
My friends would think I was a nut
Turning water into wine
Open doors would soon be shut

So I went from day to day
Tho’ my life was in a rut
‘Till I thought of what I’d say
Which connection I should cut

I was feeling part of the scenery
I walked right out of the machinery
My heart was going boom boom boom
“Hey,” he said, “grab your things, I’ve come to take you home.”
Yeah back home

When illusion spin her net
I’m never where I want to be
And liberty she pirouette
When I think that I am free

Watched by empty silhouettes
Who close their eyes, but still can see
No one taught them etiquette
I will show another me

Today I don’t need a replacement
I’ll tell them what the smile on my face meant
My heart was going boom boom boom
“Hey,” I said, “You can keep my things, they’ve come to take me home.”

For me, the spiritual experience is an intimate relationship with Mystery, and that experience can be relived in small daily interactions when I am faced with decisions to be made. Decision-making can be the foundational stones in the pursuit of intimacy with my Higher Power. I struggle with life when I exercise my volition in a reactive dance with fear. Those moments then become fodder for the muddy earth where life is ground underfoot, and ruts grow deep. Is it possible that something out there gives a damn about me?

“I believe the universe wants to be noticed. I think the universe is improbably biased toward consciousness, that it rewards intelligence in part because the universe enjoys its elegance being observed. And who am I, living in the middle of history, to tell the universe that it – or my observation of it – is temporary?” ~ John Green, The Fault in Our Stars.

The GOMU (God of my understanding) seems to care much for those who reach out to connect. This God is often subtle though, wanting me to experience life and partake of it with my free will intact. God is a gentleman.

When I can stop long enough to involve GOMU in a decision, the process of walking it out is an examination of the most profound union I will experience, which is the one between the individual human and the Infinite Spirit. All my mortal relationships are an echo of this great Mystery.



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