Endigar 580 ~ A.A.’s “Main Taproot”

From the Daily Reflections of October 19;

The principle that we shall find no enduring strength until we first admit complete defeat is the main taproot from which our whole Society has sprung and flowered.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, pages 21 – 22)

Defeated, and knowing it, I arrived at the doors of A.A., alone and afraid of the unknown. A power outside of myself had picked me up off my bed, guided me to the phone book, then to the bus stop, and through the doors of Alcoholics Anonymous. Once inside A.A. I experienced a sense of being loved and accepted, something I had not felt since early childhood. May I never lose the sense of wonder I experienced on that first evening with A.A., the greatest event of my entire life.





The greatest events of my entire life are found as a result of my interactive union with a Higher Power.  My personal mythology has evolved over time, but there has been an entity out there that we humans have called God.  It is a place-holder name for the Infinite All just as Zero is the place-holder name for the infinite nothing.  We assign other names based on our personal experience with that which works the best to foster our relationship with the Infinite One.

The contributor to this Daily Reflection looks at that first evening with A.A. as the greatest event of his entire life.  I have no such singular event.  My infant children’s heads resting with complete trust upon my shoulder as I walk about to help them sleep is burned deeply in my heart and comes close to being exalted among the greatest events of my life.  This event was the result of faith in a God that loves family.  Yet, when I felt that I had lost all including precious faith, I wrestled with God like Jacob, and I did it in the rooms of AA.  Although I walked away limping, I found GOMU (God of my understanding).  I can now see that this simple faith is with the Infinite One that loves my sanity and encourages a very pragmatic morality to protect my heart.  A.A. is my Peniel.

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