Endigar 579 ~ An Open Mind

From the Daily Reflections of October 18;

True humility and an open mind can lead us to faith, . . .   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 33)

My alcoholic thinking led me to believe that I could control my drinking, but I couldn’t. When I came to A.A., I realized that God was speaking to me through my group. My mind was open just enough to know that I needed His help. A real, honest acceptance of A.A. took more time, but with it came humility. I know how insane I was, and I am extremely grateful to have my sanity restored to me and to be a sober alcoholic. The new, sober me is a much better person than I ever could have been without A.A.




 Photographer:  Open Source, unable to locate.

Finding myself in trouble for things that only a stupid or insane person would do was my first humiliating admission.  It was a slight crack in the door of my double life.  My self-deception was the primary core of my alcoholic insanity.  I relate to the progressive acquisition of sanity that was the result of my participation in A.A. and I have become less susceptible to the dominating deception that mind-altering strategies found in any addictive behavior will improve my life.  Even if I give way to the lure of perpetual intensity, I know it to be self-deception.  For me it is the choice of seeking lighting bolt experiences or oak tree growth.  That choice is no longer hidden from me.  I am better as an AA oak than an alcoholic burst.

Oak Tree

Photo Credit: Jeannine of Garden Envy

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