Endigar 540 ~ Opening New Doors

From  Daily Reflections for September 9th;

They [the Promises] are being fulfilled among us — sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.   (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 84)

The Promises talked about in this passage are slowly coming to life for me. What has given me hope is putting Step Nine into action. The Step has allowed me to see and set goals for myself in recovery.

Old habits and behaviors die hard. Working Step Nine enables me to close the door on the drunk I was, and to open new avenues for myself as a sober alcoholic. Making direct amends is crucial for me. As I repair relationships and behavior of the past, I am better able to live a sober life!

Although I have some years of sobriety, there are times when the “old stuff’ from the past needs to be taken care of, and Step Nine always works, when I work it.

END OF QUOTE

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door-opening

I hate those promises the actors spout off in movies; “Everything is going to be all right, I promise.”  “I will not let anything happen to you, I promise.”  “Things will get better, I promise.”  It has been my experience that these are empty words when it comes to dealing with life on life’s terms.  It only makes sense when you are in a well choreographed performance.  Interactive life feels a lot more impromptu.  Miracles are irrelevant until they have happened.   I think that it is more important to have Intent Expressed than Promises Awaited.  Thus, my intent is to be painstaking about this phase of my development until I am amazed.  My intent is to know a new freedom and a new happiness.  My intent is to be free of regret so that my past can become something I am connected to in strength.  My intent is to comprehend and experience serenity.  My intent is to become useful to others, leaving behind the feeling of uselessness and self-pity.  I will lose interest in adorning a world of isolated selfishness and intend to connect to others in a way that is empowering to them.  I intend to stop self-seeking in fear that I will not be cared for.  I intend to have a completely different and more powerful outlook on life without fear of economic insecurity.  I intend to stay devoted to the habitual listening to the intuitive guidance of Gomu (God of my understanding), no longer dominated by situations that used to require me to ruminate and worry throughout the day.  It is my intention to recognized that God is doing for me what I cannot do for myself.  These are my intentions, and require my involvement.  They are not empty promises that come to me in passivity.  They paint a picture of the kind of life I am to expect as a result of my progressive spiritual awakening.

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