Endigar 461 ~ A Gift that Grows with Time
From Today’s Daily Reflections;
For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful imagination. It means release from care, boredom and worry. It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 151)
The longer I chased these elusive feelings with alcohol, the more out of reach they were. However, by applying this passage to my sobriety, I found that it described the magnificent new life made available to me by the A.A. program. “It” truly does “get better” one day at a time. The warmth, the love and the joy so simply expressed in these words grow in breadth and depth each time I read it. Sobriety is a gift that grows with time.
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The lightening bolt effect of drinking used to rocket me to the forced dimension of happiness. In the beginning the alcohol acted as an oracle, revealing to me the things I would like to have from life. It silenced my anxieties, enabled me to interact with others confidently, and made me boldly adventurous. It was a very temporary vision and a carrot on the stick pursuit. When I tried to turn the oracle into a ruler and protector, a tyrant rose in its place.
The oak tree effect of recovery was a lifestyle change that has begun to turn the vision of old into substance with the experience of serenity, confidence in my interaction with others, and adventures in living. It takes longer, but it has deep roots.
Daily Reprieve 
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