Daily Reprieve

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

We have not once sought to be one in a family, to be a friend among friends, to be a worker among workers, to be a useful member of society. Always we tried to struggle to the top of the heap, or to hide underneath it. This self-centered behavior blocked a partnership relation with any one of those about us. Of true brotherhood we had small comprehension (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 53)

This message contained in Step Four was the first one I heard loud and clear; I hadn’t seen myself in print before! Prior to my coming into A.A., I knew of no place that could teach me how to become a person among persons. From my very first meeting, I saw people doing just that and I wanted what they had. One of the reasons that I’m a happy, sober alcoholic today is that I’m learning this most important lesson.

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This is probably the most difficult lesson for me.  It is an ongoing challenge.  The fourth step has shown me some clues.  I think this social anxiety and distrust is what truly keeps me residing in the purgatory of abstinence, with only a few glimpses of spiritual and emotional sobriety.

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