Endigar 374 ~ A Lifetime Process

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

We were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn’t control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn’t make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn’t seem to be of real help to other people. . . . (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 52)

These words remind me that I have more problems than alcohol, that alcohol is only a symptom of a more pervasive disease. When I stopped drinking I began a lifetime process of recovery from unruly emotions, painful relationships, and unmanageable situations. This process is too much for most of us without help from a Higher Power and our friends in the Fellowship. When I began working the Steps of the A.A. program, many of these tangled threads unraveled but, little by little, the most broken places of my life straightened out. One day at a time, almost imperceptibly, I healed. Like a thermostat being turned down, my fears diminished. I began to experience moments of contentment. My emotions became less volatile. I am now once again a part of the human family.

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I collect magical moments that cause me to say, I healed.  Theses events get strung together as I continue to practice connecting.  Sometimes, it is a daunting process.  I need my tribe and my Gomu (God of my understanding).  I need my sacred places and times.  I need my night fires and the human grunting of binding stories.  I need to belong.

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