Endigar 276

Page 63:  “…As we felt new power flow in, as we enjoyed peace of mind, as we discovered we could face life successfully, as we became conscious of His presence, we began to lose our fear of today, tomorrow or the hereafter.  We were reborn.”

Page 63:  “God, I offer myself to Thee – to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.  Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.  Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.  May I do Thy will always!”

Page 63:  “…making sure we were ready; that we could at last abandon ourselves utterly to Him.”

Page 76:  “My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad, I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows.  Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do your bidding.  Amen.”

Page 86 – 88:  [Instructions for ending the day with an evaluation to see how our psychic transformation is going; for starting the day to kick-start our ability to hear the intuitive guidance of our Gomu, and to condition our minds so that moving into this state of being is a natural process, and learning how to maintain our connection with the Higher Power as we interact with the day, and seek to fulfill the inspired plan we gathered from morning meditation]

It is my experience that this program of recovery works when both the science and magic of spiritual development are embraced.  In this covenant interaction with Gomu, the science is our endeavor to clean house and become useful.  Working the steps.  Making meetings. Helping others.  The magic comes from this attitude of release to the Infinite One.  For me, this is not a one shot deal.  I keep having to revisit these petitions for transformation.  I must be reborn, separated from my difficulties, ready to live in utter abandonment, and the removal of paralyzing defects of character, unuseful and obsessive ideas, strengthened with inspired purpose. 

There is an implied reality that I do not hear to often, but seems important to me.  We are all connected, and we have personal dreams and aspirations written within.  When the text says, ‘we felt new power flow in,’ it assumes that is something we desire.  When the text says ‘we enjoyed peace of mind,’ it is says it knows that we as humans desire this state of being.  What does it mean to face life successfully?  Is it not the most satisfying fulfillment of those desires that the creative force of the universe has written within us?  We were reborn.  Assumed that we want to have another shot that is absent of fear of the unknown in today, tomorrow, and the hereafter. 

When I offer myself to God…it assumes that there is an entity that desires me to do so.  It assumes that I seek to interact in a loving way with that which created me and that I desire to personally and intimately benefit from this interaction.  I am not ignored, I am significant to the Creator, or else it would do no good to offer myself to It.  This very much sounds like the devotions promised in marriage, the establishment of a common vision and a future life together.  God is not intervening in my life to make me a better servant, valuable only as a battery in a religious social control engine.  The Infinite One is creating a place where I can do what is the most satisfying to me and the most fulfilling to my heart.  Helping others builds the foundation for this new world.  The total sacrifice of self, a completely selfless life is not what we were created for.  My desire to be reborn into a new and wonderful world is what drives me to offer myself to an Entity I believe has been looking forward to this union.  It simply doesn’t make sense any other way.

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