Daily Reprieve

From Courage to Change of May 22:

I used to think that if I ever looked carefully at myself, my secret fears would be confirmed: I’d see that I am hopelessly flawed and unworthy. Al-Anon has shown me that if I face the effects of alcoholism by working the Steps, this belief will fade away. I’ll see that the truth I’ve avoided is my own inner beauty.

I am powerless to change the fact that alcoholism has afffected my life. Only a Power greater than myself can overcome the effects of this disease. I call upon that Power for help with the Second and Third Steps. These Steps help me to trust that, although the ground on which I stand may quiver, I will not fall, for I am held firmly by One whose will is not so easily overturned. Regardless of how shaky I amy feel, I am safe.

Such a spiritual foundation makes a truly searching and fearless moral inventory possible. Only when I risk taking a close look at myself can my fears give way to the truth: As a child of God, I am all I need to be – loving, lovable, and splendid.

Today’s Reminder

Today I will take some time to strengthen my relationship with my Higher Power. This will bring me closer to seeing the truth as my ally and recognizing my own inner loveliness.

“I now choose to rise above my personality problems to recognize the magnificance of my being. I am totally willing to learn to love myself.”

~ Louis L. Hay

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Looking for inner beauty seems dangerously narcissistic to me. Love and light and flinging flowers in the air; who actually wants that as a way of life? In a world crumbling under the burden of sloppy agape, maybe we need to appreciate the beauty in the beast. I have seen my own shadow in Jungian terms; the thing I have kept locked away. The thing I have faced in this program attempting to find a path of intergration.

I value strength over beauty. Without strength, beauty is just a target. I am no longer a slave to the outward apprasial. I would rather be effective than good. I think the pragmatic morality of this program surpasses the white-toothed facade I grow up with.

Let’s be geniune and see where that takes us.

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