Endigar 836
From Courage to Change of April 12;
It’s only natural to want a quick fix or an immediate solution to a difficult situation. As one member jokingly pus it: “Gran me patience, Lord — and hurry!” My sentiments exactly! Do I have some discomfort or a problem in my life? Let me fix it, or be rid of it now. Is it a situation I’ve lived with for twenty years? Fine, I’ll give it fifteen minutes. Perhaps I’ve lived with it all m life — well then, an hour, maybe even two. Is it connected with alcoholism? Do its roots run really deep in the ground of my being? In that case, I’ll make a few program calls and share at a meeting.
Is it still hanging on? Very well, I’ll launch a major campaign of self-criticism. What’s wrong with me? Why do I have all these feeling about something that isn’t important? I’m sure I caused all this myself; somehow I’m to blame.
Heaven forbid I should surrender, accept my discomfort, and pray for guidance.
Today’s Reminder
Willpower cannot eliminate in a day troubles that have taken root and flourished in my life for decades. Things take time.
“You cannot create a statue by smashing the marble with a hammer, and you cannot by force of arms release the spirit or the soul of man” ~ Confucius
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I don’t feel very wise or inspired today. I said something hurtful on social media and it hit hard on two people I love dearly. The self loathing is increased by the fact that I have done this before, or at least something similar. No apology or amends can retract my blind launch of words.
It is sunshining outside. The day is beautiful in spite of my actions. Somehow, even my clumsy connections are part of this natural flow. I breath deep and trust my Higher Power to convert knowledge into wisdom rather than rage.
Daily Reprieve 
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