Daily Reprieve

From Courage to Change of April 04;

I used to love the stillness of early morning, but over years of living with an alcoholic, I stopped noticing it. Instead, I woke up the same way I went to sleep –frantic. Before I was out of bed I already had a long list of crises that needed my attention. So no matter how early I got up, I was already late. Sometimes I was so overwhelmed, I couldn’t get up at all.

My life has changed. I heard someone in Al-Anon say that when they open their eyes in the morning, they also open their ears. Now as I awaken, I listen for the birds. I choose not to review my plans for the day until I’ve had my breakfast. I prefer to take time to appreciate my favorite part of the day.

Al-Anon is helping me to clear my mind of my burdens so that I am able to enjoy the wonder of the moment. I am beginning to enjoy a childlike awe about the splendor of nature, to see the beauty all around me, to let my face break into a smile spontaneously, to laugh, to love, to live again. Today I can say, “Good morning, God,” instead of “Good God, it’s morning.”

Today’s Reminder

Today I’ll be keenly aware of my senses. I will think about what I am experiencing at this moment. I won’t let the beauty of this day slip by unnoticed.

“Real generosity toward the future consists in giving all to what is present.” ~ Albert Camus

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I am hungry for something of the Great Beyond to find me. Every day. Each day. Our day.

There is nothing to compare with this moment. It presents the awe of mystery over the fear of uncertainty.

I hunger for it, and my seeking gives me a way to make a connection. The 12 Step program answers my desire. The rooms give me a place to develop this daily skill. There are times when we learn to accept silence as listening moments. The awkwardness gives way to opportunity.

I hate when I allow a rush to rob me of this moment. And over time, without this “beyond connection,” I am overwhelmed.

I love this developed relationship with one day at a time.

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