Endigar 698 ~ The Limits of Self-Reliance

From the Daily Reflections of February 11;

We asked ourselves why we had them [fears]. Wasn’t it because self-reliance failed us?  (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 68).

All of my character defects separate me from God’s will. When I ignore my association with Him I face the world and my alcoholism alone and must depend on self-reliance. I have never found security and happiness through self-will and the only result is a life of fear and discontent. God provides the path back to Him and to His gift of serenity and comfort. First, however, I must be willing to acknowledge my fears and understand their source and power over me. I frequently ask God to help me understand how I separate myself from Him.





I am sometimes afraid of relinquishing self-reliance even though it does not work to enforce my isolated will on a connected Universe. My limitations and rebuffs and struggles to stand alone are familiar failures. The constant dose of fear is so normal it is an invisible affliction, until I slow down and take an inventory.

So what now? Can I trust the God of my understanding? In my moral circumspection I see that I have a place in the Universe. In this connection with my Higher Power, I suspect that the will of God fulfills the desires of my heart. They are not mutually exclusive when I discover where the true me exists and the anti-me resists. For me, this is the process of being restored to sanity. I am willing to believe there is a God of my understanding that will allow me to relinquish the illusion of control.

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