Endigar 643 ~ The Rewards of Giving
From the Daily Reflections of December 20;
This is indeed the kind of giving that actually demands nothing. He does not expect his brother sufferer to pay him, or even to love him. And then he discovers that by the divine paradox of this kind of giving he has found his own reward, whether his brother has yet received anything or not. (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 109).
Through experience with Twelfth Step work, I came to understand the rewards of giving that demands nothing in return. At first I expected recovery in others, but I soon learned that this did not happen. Once I acquired the humility to accept the fact that every Twelfth Step call was not going to result in a success, then I was open to receive the rewards of selfless giving.
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The goal of my recovery is to be able to give without the fear of being diminished. Normally I would need to know that I will be appreciated, loved, and respected for the success of my activities. This is the life of isolated self exaltation. This is how I protected myself from being drained by any attempt to help others. In recovery I am guaranteed nothing but connection within the Fellowship and with my Higher Power. I can now enjoy a secret empowerment that allows me to risk giving without ensuring reward. In this endeavor, I am in union with an infinitely powerful and loving Spirit, my Gomu (God of my understanding).
Daily Reprieve 
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