Endigar 610 ~ Overcoming Loneliness

From the Daily Reflections of November 17;

Almost without exception, alcoholics are tortured by loneliness. Even before our drinking got bad and people began to cut us off, nearly all of us suffered the feeling that we didn’t quite belong.   (As Bill Sees It, page 90)

The agonies and the void that I often felt inside occur less and less frequently in my life today. I have learned to cope with solitude. It is only when I am alone and calm that I am able to communicate with God, for He cannot reach me when I am in turmoil. It is good to maintain contact with God at all times, but it is absolutely essential that, when everything seems to go wrong, I maintain that contact through prayer and meditation.





This holiday season is very quiet.  I have not decorated or put up a tree or felt the agonizing rush to complete a gift list.  I am no longer married and my children are forging their own lives.  My Father is with me, but is quiet and awaiting his time to cross over.  With prayer and meditation, I sense this is not punishment, but a calling to intimacy with my Higher Power. Removing all that rattles my brain and distracts my heart, I feel a loving caress.  Being alone now feels like being chosen by Gomu (God of my understanding).  I could fight this and hunt down human contact, but I am honored by the pursuit.  All else seems paltry.  This place was hard won, working through resentments and fears.  The Steps laid the groundwork for this new and profound knowing, this thing some call faith.  I will gratefully embrace this beautiful loneliness, and the ugliness that it used to represent slips away.    Loneliness becomes solitude as I unite with God.

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

%d bloggers like this: