Endigar 440 ~ Long-Term Hope

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

Since most of us are born with an abundance of natural desires, it isn’t strange that we often let these far exceed their intended purpose. When they drive us blindly, or we willfully demand that they supply us with more satisfactions or pleasures than are possible or due us, that is the point at which we depart from the degree of perfection that God wishes for us here on earth. That is the measure of our character defects, or, if you wish, of our sins.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 65)

This is where long-term hope is born and perspective is gained, both of the nature of my illness and the path of my recovery. The beauty of A.A. lies in knowing that my life, with God’s help, will improve. The A.A. journey becomes richer, the understanding becomes truth, the dreams become realities — and today becomes forever.

As I step into the A.A. light, my heart fills with the presence of God.




I imagine the days of the natural man which was the time before recorded history and controlled civilization.  The natural man was a survivor and a predator.  His adaptive and aggressive intelligence helped his small nomadic family unit to live in a world filled with more powerful predatory species.  This was the hunter path for mankind.


As humanity outlived some of its fiercest competitor species, a new approach to survival developed;  agriculture and cooperative enslavement. This was the foundation of  our modern government  and economy.  The farmer man and the hunter man began to cooperate.  The farmer could provide so much more food and resource than the hunter, and the hunter could give the farmer communities protection from the onslaught of  predators and other raiding hunters.  The basis for a human military was formed.


The rise of the scientific community tends to make the hunter man more of a liability than an asset because of his resistance to peaceful indoctrination.   I speculate that alcoholism and other addictive diseases are the result of residual elements of the hunter man’s evolutionary path being suppressed.  Anxiety is a natural internal state for a hunter.  Ever surprise a cat and watch it leap several feet in the air?  Our exaggerated appetites were helpful in the wild.

I believe that the Light of AA has shown because God values the wild at heart.  He does not wish to see the hunter man choke on the vomit of his addiction.  The God of my understanding is the author of the hunter path (masculine energy), the farmer path (feminine energy) , and is responsible for  leading them to the evolutionary marriage bed.  The evolutionary intercourse between the hunter Man and the farmer Woman gave birth to the Infant scientific path of humanity.

We are now stewards of a very powerful development in mankind’s short history.

It is my long-term hope that I will adapt and grow strong and that my predatory core will be channeled into a courageous stewardship of life supporting the rise of positive individual freedom.  One day at a time.


NOTE:  This is not a scientific paper.  It is a simple myth that is helpful to me and my sobriety.  If it is not helpful to you and yours, do not spend time entertaining it.

2 Responses to “Endigar 440 ~ Long-Term Hope”

  1. Well it sure helps me understand step six. Thanks for sharing

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