Endigar 402 ~ “Entirely Honest”

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

We must be entirely honest with somebody if we expect to live long or happily in this world.  (Alcoholics Anonymous, pages 73 – 74)

Honesty, like all virtues, is to be shared. It began after I shared “. . . [my] whole life’s story with someone . . .” in order to find my place in the Fellowship. Later I shared my life in order to help the newcomer find his place with us. This sharing helps me to learn honesty in all my dealings and to know that God’s plan for me comes true through honest openness and willingness.

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nuclear-bomb-explosion

I have a real problem with this, because I have such a profound distrust of others.  I also have a profound distrust of myself.  This is something I need to take to my sponsor, and I think I may need to find a new sponsor.  I like the one I have now, but he is just so friendly and laissez faire and I am so likely to pull away.  For me, I have found that truth seems to come through confrontation.  If I intend to embrace some new idea or person, and you hold that concept or relationship to be sacred, avert your gaze and find a radioactive shelter.  I simply cannot overcome my internal doctrines of distrust without kicking in a door or two.  Once the blast radius has calmed, I am ready to work things out.  There has to be a better way.  It is hard to build connections with this sort of approach.

 

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