Endigar 383 ~ The Bondage of Resentments
From Today’s Daily Reflections;
. . . harboring resentment is infinitely grave. For then we shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the spirit. (As Bill Sees It, page 5)
It has been said, “Anger is a luxury I cannot afford.” Does this suggest I ignore this human emotion? I believe not. Before I learned of the A.A. program, I was a slave to the behavior patterns of alcoholism. I was chained to negativity, with no hope of cutting loose.
The Steps offered me an alternative. Step Four was the beginning of the end of my bondage. The process of “letting go” started with an inventory. I needed not be frightened, for the previous Steps assured me I was not alone. My Higher Power led me to this door and gave me the gift of choice. Today I can choose to open the door to freedom and rejoice in the sunlight of the Steps, as they cleanse the spirit within me.
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I experienced a great deal of emotional constipation in active alcoholism. Actually, I experienced impacted anxiety feces in my emotional bowel tract long before alcohol grew into a full fledged demon. I simply did not know of a good way to process intense emotions. I either suppressed or exploded. The moral inventory has given me a way to process perfectly legitimate emotions in perfectly appropriate ways. Once my emotional digestive system has been cleaned out with fourth step work, I can work to maintain regularity with tenth step work (after working steps five through nine).
Daily Reprieve 
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