Daily Reprieve

Is seems that pushing forward feels like anger, just as loving feels like sadness.

It is everything or nothing for me.  I am either a jelly fish discarded on the beach by violent waves or I am Hitler invading Poland.  I guess that it is time to start goose stepping if I am going to get anything accomplished today.

I think this might be a common dilemma for alcoholics.  That is why our approach toward God must be “Everything or Nothing.”  It is not to appease divine insecurity or surrender to the control of a religious cult;  It has little to do with God and more to do with the powerful egos of myself and my fellow alcoholic / addicts.

“On the other hand—and strange as this may seem to those who do not understand—once a psychic change has occurred, the very same person who seemed doomed, who had so many problems he despaired of ever solving them, suddenly finds himself easily able to control his desire for alcohol, the only effort necessary being that required to follow a few simple rules.”~ Doctor’s Opinion from BB.

” One feels that something more than human power is needed to produce the essential psychic change.”~ Doctor’s Opinion from BB.

Soft and mushy thinking ~”we threw up our hands in doubt and said, ‘We don’t know.’ ” ~ page 53 of the Big Book.

WE AGNOSTICS “could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing.  God either is, or He isn’t.  What was our choice to be?” ~ page 53 of the Big Book.

This is one place where we take the black and white thinking that is usually counted as a fault, and turn it for our good.

Time to march forth.

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