Daily Reprieve

I let go.  There is nothing in the ideas that need my further analysis to make this decision.  The Assassin’s voice has used them well to relegate me to a life of fear and hyper vigilance.  I want to live fully.  I awoke twice this morning.  My body, then my spirit. 

Any reward I achieved from cherishing these ideas I surrender.  I open myself to a new life, and recognize that so much of my old life will, by necessity, die or be forever altered. 

I also know that I am powerless to change, and that the unmanageability creates a great need for change.  I now understand why the Universe has me leaving my support network, leaving my current resources, going away for three weeks.  I feel a promise of magic today.  But I must step out of the way.  In humility, I gain the power of a god. 

Enough!  It is done, finished! 

My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, with all my concepts of what is good and bad. 

I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows, which is the litmus test of its usefulness to me.

Grant me strength, transfer great power to me, as I go out from here, to do your bidding, to cooperate with your process that has been initiated in me.

Amen – SO BE IT. 

Isn’t it interesting that the magic is to begin on Mother’s day?  As my Core expression enters this divine womb? 

I will be on orders for the next three weeks.  I will return on May 27th.

Namaste from John Mansion.

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