Endigar 223
I am going to stay around for a while. I am finally getting restarted on my 4th step.
I was at 46.4% complete on column 4 of my resentments in Endigar 216. I will pick-up from there.
It is 6:49am and I am now at 47.8%.
7:07am and 49.3%
7:35am and 50.7%
I stopped and went to an 8am meeting, The Buster Group, named for the Irish Pub that allowed AA to have a meeting there. They torn down Buster’s Irish Pub, but the AA group that bares that name continues own…in another bar called Attitudes. I love this meeting. I am comfortable there. The topic was on all or nothing thinking. Some of the things that stayed with me are the following:
“When I get caught up in all or nothing thinking, I have more nothing than all. I get overwhelmed with life and just give up.”
“When I first came into these rooms, I was a rope pusher and a cat herder. I wanted to fix everything. I had to learn how to take it easy.”
For me, I know that I have to be devoted to the work, the process involved in my spiritual development. But I surrender the results of that activity to a power greater than myself, with supreme confidence that the Higher Power is truly interested in seeing me unfold and become the contribution to the stream of life that I was meant to be. Now back to work.
9:59 am and 52.2%.
10:20 am and I just added another resentment, worked the first 3 colums on it, and now I am at 51.4%.
10:30 am and I added yet another resentment, worked the first 3 colums on it, and now I am at 50.7%
10:40 am and 52%. I am finished with the third of my three major resentments – religion.
11:25 am and 53.5%.
5:37 PM – 54.9%
5:52 PM – 56.3%
6:10 PM – 57.7%
6:22 PM – 59.2%
6:36 PM – 60.6%
6:45 PM – 62%
6:55 PM – 63.4%
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