Daily Reprieve

This was the most nothing day I have had in a while.  I guess I should be thankful that it didn’t include a tankard of ale.  Or a bottle of vodka.   Or any other mind altering substance I could get my hands on.  And I am. 

I relented to my desire to pull away from everyone today.  I made no connections at all, except what was absolutely necessary.  That is probably not a wise move.  But I am tired of it.  I need some time to be a slug.  I need time to oversleep and masturbate to naughty thoughts and waste my life playing computer games.  I have been so nice to so many people that I am simply drained. 

So what now.  Do I attempt to do something productive in the dark of the night?  I am going to see if I can get the right of passage for my son written up.  I think it is about time for me to close this circle for both of our sakes.  I will try to come back here later on.  Maybe I will have it finished by then.

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