Daily Reprieve

Wow, talk about morbid reflection!  I came home and devoted some time to sleep.  How many times do I have to learn this lesson?  Fatigue equals crappy attitude.  Extreme fatigue equals a free ticket to the straight jacket of projected fear and opportunistic depression.  Acceptance is the answer to all my problems.  I have to learn to let go.  Step Six; Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.  Step Seven; Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.  The magic of these two steps is the awareness of self-destructive behavior that has become as natural as breathing or blinking.  Then, a desired trait is introduced in the intuitive life of meditation.  It is just like the drinking or using.  When the focus was to abstain, I could not.  But when the focus became a lifestyle of sobriety, I no longer had to fight the obsessively destructive behavior.  Confidence infused with serene acceptance is what I desire.  The ability to let go of the day, and trust that I am in the right place at the right time. 

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