Daily Reprieve

I hate the emotional roller coaster.  Now a days, it is usually the result of missing sleep.  I hated being at work today, and my confidence level has dropped.  Fighting depression.  I don’t know whether to attempt to make sense out of it or just accept the fact that I can’t figure anything out in this state of mind.  I stayed up late and got up early.  I am exhausted, and I have something that I wanted to do tonight.  It makes me angry.  And unfortunately, there is the desire to drink or use.  something, anything to keep me from being poisoned by the opiate of the masses.  I am so tired.  And I don’t like this life right now. 

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