Endigar 926 ~ The Hour Blessed
From Courage to Change of Jun 18:
By the time we reach Al-Anon, many of us resent others whose lives appear less troubled, envying what we think they have. But in time we discover that each of us is special. I have a unique set of skills, interests, and opportunities. I’m assured that I have everything I need to do what I am here to do today. That doesn’t mean I have everything I want, but I can trust that my Higher Power has a better rasp of what’s good for me than I do.
To envy someone else because I want what I think they have is a waste of time. We are on different paths. They have what they need, I have what I need. Resentment will only put a wedge between me and another human being.
I am no one’s victim. I am where I belong. Envy is nothing more than a hostile form of self-pity. I will not succumb to it today. Instead, I will be grateful for the many gifts, talents, and opportunities I have been give. When I appreciate what I have instead of dwelling on what I lack, I feel good about my life. This allows me to be happy for another person’s abundance.
Today’s Reminder
Another person’s bounty reminds me that wonderful things can happen at any time to anybody. I will appreciate the many gifts I have been given.
“Whatever hour God has blessed you with, take it with grateful hand.” ~ Horace
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There are mornings when I wake up with a shadow already in my chest. Some echo of a comparison I never meant to make, lodged somewhere behind my ribs, whispering lies about what I lack. I catch it before it grows teeth. I have learned to do that—thanks to these rooms, these steps, this gentle army of survivors who remind me to stop measuring the worth of my journey against someone else’s map.
It’s so easy to resent what looks like ease in another’s life. To wish for their open doors, their settled smiles, their sense of belonging. But what I see is not the whole of it. And even if it were—what then? What am I really saying when I envy? That my life is not enough? That my path is wrong? That the God who walks with me made some kind of clerical error?
No. Not today.
Today I remember that I have been equipped. Not with what I want, always, but with what I need. Today’s breath. Today’s strength. Today’s lesson. The tools in my pocket might not look like anyone else’s, but they were forged for my hands alone. And I don’t need to prove that to anyone. Not even to myself.
Envy is a disguise. It cloaks my pain in righteousness, then asks me to bow to it. But I won’t worship at that altar. I am not powerless here. I can choose gratitude over grudge. I can admire someone’s light without cursing my shadow. I can remember: another person’s abundance is not my deprivation—it is proof that beauty is still being handed out.
May I meet this hour, the one blessed for me, with open hands. Not to take, but to receive.
Daily Reprieve 
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