Endigar 725 ~ The Key is Willingness
From the Daily Reflections of March 07;
Once we have placed the key of willingness in the lock and have the door ever so slightly open, we find that we can always open it some more. (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 35).
The willingness to give up my pride and self-will to a Power greater than myself has proved to be the only ingredient absolutely necessary to solve all of my problems today. Even the smallest amount of willingness, if sincere, is sufficient to allow God to enter and take control over any problem, pain, or obsession. My level of comfort is in direct relation to the degree of willingness I possess at any given moment to give up my self-will, and allow God’s will to be manifested in my life. With the key of willingness, my worries and fears are powerfully transformed into serenity.
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I would like to say that willingness came to me from an intelligent assessment of my dire situation under active alcoholism and later, addiction. My mind did not provide me such a welcome defense. Instead, it was the primal clawing for life that came from desperation. The most ancient aspect of my brain had to be activated to become willing to reconnect with a Higher Power that I held responsible for my post marital apocalypse. My willingness first unlocked the door to my recovery when I acknowledged the insanity of effectively deceiving myself. The door of willingness has been pushed ever wider with a lot of work to grasp the sanity of the truth about myself and my place in this universe. Rather than reconnecting with my ineffective religion, I have connected with an exciting relationship with the God of my understanding, which is something I had not expected. It gets better, but it does begin with willingness.
Daily Reprieve 
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