Endigar 704 ~ The Love in Their Eyes
From the Daily Reflections of February 17;
Some of us won’t believe in God, others can’t, and still others who do believe that God exists have no faith whatever He will perform this miracle. (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 25).
It was the changes I saw in the new people who came into the Fellowship that helped me lose my fear, and change my negative attitude to a positive one. I could see the love in their eyes and I was impressed by how much their “One Day at a Time” sobriety meant to them. They had looked squarely at Step Two and came to believe that a power greater than themselves was restoring them to sanity. That gave me faith in the Fellowship, and hope that it could work for me too. I found that God was a loving God, not that punishing God I feared before coming to A.A. I also found that He had been with me during all those times I had been in trouble before I came to A.A. I know today that He was the one who led me to A.A. and that I am a miracle.
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The key for me to see this kind of magic is continuous connection, particularly in the beginning. If I start finding reasons not to be present, either in body or in mind, I am living on fading memories of recovery miracles. If I keep coming back on a regular basis, I know and am known by the members of my most essential tribe. The flow of life is the fast flipping of many snapshots and inconsistency leaves confusing gaps to overcome.
Science embraces empirical knowledge. Philosophy braves the study of abstract knowledge. Faith is a deep knowing based on accumulated unexplainables and fulfilled improbabilities. That is how I look at it. The GOMU (God of my understanding) has given me a path to encounter one another. I just have to commit to stepping it out, one day at a time.
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