Endigar 629 ~ When the Chips are Down

From the Daily Reflections of December 6;

When we developed still more, we discovered the best possible source of emotional stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice, forgiveness, and love was healthy, and that it would work where nothing else would. If we really depended upon God, we couldn’t very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 116).

It has been my experience that, when all human resources appear to have failed, there is always One who will never desert me. Moreover, He is always there to share my joy, to steer me down the right path, and to confide in when no one else will do. While my well-being and happiness can be added to, or diminished, by human efforts, only God can provide the loving nourishment upon which I depend for my daily spiritual health.





I have experienced what I felt was the abandonment of God.  It was only members of my family of origin that stood by me in those horrific times. Later a young woman came into my life who had also experienced religious abuse and was forging a path that would have been counted evil by the church I had grown up to know as God’s children.  These people behaved better than the God I had once trusted.

The churchians took a torch and pitchfork approach to my family’s suffering.  I am grateful, because they demonstrated to me what I never want to embrace again. And maybe my religious indoctrination was so deep that only betrayal and a brutal witch-hunt could separate me from the exclusive “us and them” mentality.

In AA I found a God that cared nothing about doctrines.  I know this because I see that caring God help people who ignore and even trample doctrines I thought were essential to connect with Him.  I found a God that came in many forms of loving and empowerment responding to the best path for each individual.  I have no clue as to the nature and make-up of Gomu (God of my understanding) and I am better off then when I had answers galore.  I just know that I have an intimate relationship with this Infinite Source.  I have discovered the joy of …”the Realm of Spirit is broad, roomy, all inclusive; never exclusive or forbidding to those who earnestly seek. It is open, we believe, to all men.”  (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 46).

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