Endigar 591 ~ Our Survival

From the Daily Reflections of October 29;

Since recovery from alcoholism is life itself to us, it is imperative that we preserve in full strength our means of survival.  (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 177)

The honesty expressed by the members of A.A. in meetings has the power to open my mind. Nothing can block the flow of energy that honesty carries with it. The only obstacle to this flow of energy is inebriation, but even then, no one will find a closed door if he or she has left and chooses to return. Once he or she has received the gift of sobriety, each A.A. member is challenged on a daily basis to accept a program of honesty.

My Higher Power created me for a purpose in life. I ask Him to accept my honest efforts to continue on my journey in the spiritual way of life. I call on Him for strength to know and seek His will.

 

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Is it possible to speak thoughts with words we believe to be honest, because they are spoken with great emotion?  Sometimes expressing myself is the venting of swirling emotions that are wrapped around narratives in my life that I have constructed.  The justifying fantasies of an alcoholic can be quite potent.  It feels genuine, but impulsive and reactive communication rarely helps me to be honest, that is, to be truthful.  My alcoholic denial uses intense emotions as a weapon, conducting drive-by shootings of the truth about me.  I need a safe place where I can foster my serenity.  That is what, for the most part, I gain from attending meetings and connecting with others.  In this serenity, I can coax the truth out into the open.  This life devoted to honesty is a key to my sanity and one of the best gifts I can return to the Fellowship.

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