Endigar 564 ~ Serenity After the Storm

From the Daily Reflections of October 3;

Someone who knew what he was talking about once remarked that pain was the touchstone of all spiritual progress. How heartily we A.A.’s can agree with him. . . .  (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, pages 93-94)

When on the roller coaster of emotional turmoil, I remember that growth is often painful. My evolution in the A.A. program has taught me that I must experience the inner change, however painful, that eventually guides me from selfishness to selflessness. If I am to have serenity, I must STEP my way past emotional turmoil and its subsequent hangover, and be grateful for continuing spiritual progress.

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DEPRESSION_by_optiknerve_gr

In the given text  from the Twelve and Twelve, I had problems with the phrase, “pain was the touchstone of all spiritual progress.”  I looked up the definition for touchstone and it did not fit in the context it was taken from. Catalyst would have been a better choice.  I talked with someone in tonight’s meeting about this phrase.  He said that a sponsor had explained it to him that when pain comes our way, we will have a choice in the way we respond to it.  We will either drink or seek a spiritual solution.  The way we respond to that painful call for a decision will reveal our spiritual progress.  That makes sense to me.

The contributor defined spiritual progress as an inner change, possibly painful, that leads me from selfishness to selflessness.  For me, it is more accurate to say that it is a move from isolating selfishness to a willingness to sacrifice for a greater good.  The only time a human being is truly selfless is when he is rotting in the grave.  Selfless is defined as “having little or no concern for oneself.”  That just seems dangerous in recovery.  I have to have some desire for self-preservation and some ambition to live a better life and reap its fruits.  To me, selflessness is what you feel when you have made the decision to commit suicide and you are giving everything away.  So I seek to connect, to move beyond isolating selfishness, and in connection with the recovery network and Gomu (God of my understanding), I seek the will of my Higher Power, which will lead me to a common good for which I have grown willing to make sacrifices.

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