Daily Reprieve

From the Daily Reflections of October 1;

It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe.   (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 85)

When I am in pain it is easy to stay close to the friends I have found in the program. Relief from that pain is provided in the solutions contained in A.A.’s Twelve Steps. But when I am feeling good and things are going well, I can become complacent. To put it simply, I become lazy and turn into the problem instead of the solution. I need to get into action, to take stock: where am I and where am I going? A daily inventory will tell me what I must change to regain spiritual balance. Admitting what I find within myself, to God and to another human being, keeps me honest and humble.

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Step 10:  Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

Perfectionist Fear;  Wanting to perform at a level that is beyond reproach or not at all.  Usually the latter.  Rejection Fear;  Wanting to hear voices of validation, thus I decide to perform anyway and obsess over the prospect that I am being ignored, my voice is not being heard.

Results in an apathetic mind and an anxious heart.  Cannot stay in such a state of being.

GOMU Conference;  He is responsible for the results and I am responsible for the day’s tasks.  Calm down and work.  Surrender the results to Gomu (God of my understanding).  Help this to be a normal part of my being.

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