Endigar 548 ~ Freedom from Fear

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

When, with God’s help, we calmly accepted our lot, then we found we could live at peace with ourselves and show others who still suffered the same fears that they could get over them, too. We found that freedom from fear was more important than freedom from want.   (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 122)

Material values ruled my life for many years during my active alcoholism. I believed that all of my possessions would make me happy, yet I still felt bankrupt after I obtained them. When I first came into A.A., I found out about a new way of living. As a result of learning to trust others, I began to believe in a power greater than myself. Having faith freed me from the bondage of self. As material gains were replaced by the gifts of the spirit, my life became manageable. I then chose to share my experiences with other alcoholics.




I am beginning to experience this freedom from fear and anxiety.  It is a slow adjustment, but it is happening.  In the past I desired power and position and kept looking in my isolated mind for the ability to rule.  I wanted to be the God of the Results of my life.  Material possessions have never been of interest to me.  It was always about power.  When I tried to master the results of life, I kept discovering layer upon layer of powerlessness.

“This is the how and why of it.  First of all, we had to quit playing God.  It didn’t work.  Next we decided . . . ” (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 62)

. . .  that God would be in charge of the Results of Life.  I would be the Demigod of Tasks.  My only concern is to perform the tasks revealed to me by Gomu (God of my understanding).

Demigods are sired into human flesh by Deity.

“He is the Father, and we are His children.  Most good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom.”

When I publish this article today, I will have performed a task as a recovery Demigod and I know that Gomu – the Infinite God of the Results – will take it from there.  What an amazing relief it is when I truly believe that.

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