Endigar 517 ~ A Frame of Reference
From Tomorrow’s Daily Reflections;
Referring to our list [inventory] again. Putting out of our minds the wrongs others had done, we resolutely looked for our own mistakes. Where had we been selfish, dishonest, self-seeking and frightened? (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 67)
There is a wonderful freedom in not needing constant approval from colleagues at work or from the people I love. I wish I had known about this Step before, because once I developed a frame of reference, I felt able to do the next right thing, knowing that the action fit the situation and that it was the correct thing to do.
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Shame and resentment was a constant emotional disturbance with flashing images of faces and situations like rushed news coverage of some calamity. There was no solid footing to address the horror sagas of my inescapable role as a perpetual victim. This was my alcoholic theatre of the macabre.
The recovery program took me into that freak show and turned on the lights. The moral inventory was an audit that revealed how much I had invested in the show’s production, and we developed a plan to reclaim my spiritual, mental, and emotional resources and develop an actual adult interactive life. I no longer have to invest in the tragic production of misery.
I can identify when I am isolating myself and choose instead to connect to my God and my others. I have replaced the alcoholic tragic drama with the romantic comedy of sobriety. It is the role of a lifetime starring in “To Thine Own Self Be True.”
Daily Reprieve 
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