Endigar 411 ~ The Past is Over
From Today’s Daily Reflections;
A.A. experience has taught us we cannot live alone with our pressing problems and the character defects which cause or aggravate them. If . . . Step Four . . .has revealed in stark relief those experiences we’d rather not remember . . . then the need to quit living by ourselves with those tormenting ghosts of yesterday gets more urgent than ever. We have to talk to somebody about them. (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, page 55)
Whatever is done is over. It cannot be changed. But my attitude about it can be changed through talking with those who have gone before and with sponsors. I can wish the past never was, but if I change my actions in regard to what I have done, my attitude will change. I won’t have to wish the past away. I can change my feelings and attitudes, but only through my actions and the help of my fellow alcoholics.
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I was in a meeting yesterday, and someone who has watched me bounce around the rooms and struggle with the relapse rodeo told me, “You can’t do this thing alone.”
Today I understand that more than ever. I still have to be reminded. Sometimes my various fears present themselves as God, and pull me back to isolated self-reliance. Then I lose ground. This is when I have to reconnect to my actual Higher Power, and find my way back to into the fellowship of AA. Spirituality is fed through connection.
I heard an interesting nugget from the fellowship in my sunrise meeting this morning; “Coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous.”
Daily Reprieve 
May 12, 2014 at 10:30 am
Love that last quote. I haven’t heard it in a while. Be well.
May 12, 2014 at 11:17 am
Thank-you. And you as well.