Endigar 407 ~ Walking Through Fear

From Today’s Daily Reflections;

If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing.  (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 76)

When I had taken my Fifth Step, I became aware that all my defects of character stemmed from my need to feel secure and loved. To use my will alone to work on them would have been trying obsessively to solve the problem. In the Sixth Step I intensified the action I had taken in the first three Steps – meditating on the Step by saying it over and over, going to meetings, following my sponsor’s suggestions, reading and searching within myself. During the first three years of sobriety I had a fear of entering an elevator alone. One day I decided I must walk through this fear. I asked for God’s help, entered the elevator, and there in the corner was a lady crying. She said that since her husband had died she was deathly afraid of elevators. I forgot my fear and comforted her. This spiritual experience helped me to see how willingness was the key to working the rest of the Twelve Steps to recovery. God helps those who help themselves.



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I think facing fear is one of the big ways in which the steps cause us to move against our natural desires. In many ways, my fear-meter is as broken as my guilt-a-meter.  Fear is meant to protect us from danger.  It is such a primal emotion and takes many spiritual modifications to keep our protector from being the warden of our imprisoned soul.  I think a key to overcoming fear paralysis is to be able to discern the true from the false, with a willingness to walk out whatever we discover to be our reality.  The exploration and sharing of the moral inventory starts this process of an altered perception of hopeless victim to connected empowerment.

“There is no spoon” – Neo in the Matrix

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