Endigar 184

What is happening, my Higher Power?  You really are a better person than I am.  What is going on here?  Who are you?  Why do you care?  My mind was going in bad places, a merry-go-round of futility.  I asked for Your help, and You knocked me the fuck out.  Although I am OK with not knowing, I really would like to understand what and who I am dealing with here.  Step eleven can sound so sterile when we read it every meeting, and have it safely labeled, even given it its proper number and place.  “Spiritual Maintenance?”  Yeah.  sure.  You maintain an erection long enough, and you ejaculate.  What sort of spiritual release are you bringing me to, my Higher Power? 

11. “Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with our Higher Power, praying only for knowledge of our Higher Power’s will for us and the power to carry that out.”


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