Endigar 44

I am personally being affected by religious addiction because of the interference it has with my ability to trust and take full advantage of this program of recovery.  My devotion to the Big Book is beginning to feel like the iconic worship of the scriptures.  Many of the characteristics of the program have a none too subtle religious undercurrents that arouse my defenses.   Sponsorship is so much like discipleship.

Yet I gain from this program.  There is a power here.  I just don’t want to invest life energy, and find that I have been tricked once again.

2 Responses to “Endigar 44”

  1. I know what you mean about Big Book “worship.” I’m a Bill W. fanboy, and I tend to see the BB as inspired. There are certainly worse things to fixate on. It might help to remember that the BB is a work based on real experience, and the principles within are proven to work over many years, with many thousands of people. Keeping in close contact with other people in recovery might also help you keep your focus in the reality of your program, instead of the heady words of Bill W. and the Founders.

  2. Thanks Bill. I do understand this in my head, but I struggle with … I’m just going to leave it at that for now. A simple thank-you to someone on the other side of the country who understands.

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